Teeter-Tottering in Time’s Domain

The weather smacks of summer, the breezy timelessness of youth strengthened by the sun’s pure will to warm the Earth.┬áDespite the external circumstances, I’ve been breathless since 8 am.

It started when I used my mind as a calendar instead of that actual daytimer I lug about with me.

First call at 11 am. Check. That gives me enough time to run seven errands and be back in time to relax before my first official appointment.

Not so.

I had miscalculated the time of the call by one hour.

As I tooled down the road, I smugly grinned to myself about how patient I felt driving behind the slowpoke in front of me. That’s when my cell phone jangled. It was a call from Paris. Quick inhale. THE supposed 11 am CALL FROM PARIS.

flowOops. I pressed the accelerator, tossed the groceries in the fridge, and hooked my laptop up to reconnect with my Parisian contact via Skype . It seemed my equilibrium, that fragile hothouse flower of flow, was disrupted for the rest of the morning.

Despite my very best intentions, I pushed through until lunchtime with nary a deep breathe in the mix. At one point I managed to recognize squeezing in another phone call to Rome just as the kids were to come home for lunch was not a good idea. My old self would have forged on. My power of slow persona said Nada, lady.

Manifesting flow is easier when you become aware of the grip you try to have on time. Clock combat is incongruent with flow. In fact, it kills it.

It is almost 4 pm and I think I’ve caught my breath. It’s a long way from flow, but as the sun warms my face, I anticipate flow’s sweet return as I do the coming of summer.

4 Comments

  1. bernadette

    May 7, 2009 at 2:25 pm

    Perhaps there is some planetary “flow” message in the air these days, or perhaps it’s just the usual chaos that ensues as the school year draws near a close. Whatever it is I too am struggling with it right now – my daily intention is to “trust the flow” and it has not been easy.

  2. HyperActiveX

    May 7, 2009 at 3:40 pm

    Very well written – catches the spirit of what you wanted to say, and effectively draws us into feeling the ebb and flow of urgency and your effort to make it bend to your will as opposed to vice versa!

  3. powerofslow

    May 7, 2009 at 5:16 pm

    Thank you, Bernadette. There must be a planetary pull indeed.

    HyperActiveX – I appreciate your kind words. Ebb and flow of urgency – you said it!

  4. Willow Drinkwater

    May 16, 2009 at 11:47 am

    Ah summer….when the livin’ is easy!

Leave a Reply